Prisoner of Hopes


  • ON THE ROAD AGAIN

    It’s the journey that counts.

    And so, we set out on our journey.  Part celebration of the end of a long career and part hopeful new beginnings.  Retirement…end or beginning?  I choose to dwell on the beginnings.  All the packing and the planning ends the moment the journey begins.  RV in motion. Truck in tow.  We take to the backroads, the little highways that pass farms and small town houses.

    Somewhere along the way we get gas, we rest, we eat.  We enjoy the day.  Until……..the doldrums set in.  The houses begin to look the same.  Each field blends into the next.  Six hours in and we just want to be there. Where ever there is.  Thirty minutes from the first campsite.  I take the wheel with a sense of happiness.  We are almost there!

    But then, a road closure.  A stop light in the middle of nowhere.  The road to the bridge we must take is down to one lane.  And so we wait.  Seven minutes can seem like an eternity.  Are any cars coming toward us?  I can’t see any. And so, the stop light meant to protect us becomes my enemy.  I beg the light to change.  I feel myself get annoyed.  I wonder what would happen if I just went through the light anyway.  And we sit for what feels like forever… until finally I see a cloud of dust and large vehicles come streaming down the one lane road.  Finally, I understand that the red light has done its job.  It has kept me from rushing headlong into danger.  It turns green and I am thankful and move on.

    The road is narrow for a large RV towing a truck, but we make our way.  Over the river and into Nebraska.  The GPS entices us to try a dubious road in the back country, but we persevere on the well worn highway.  11 miles to go and we land behind a hay wagon.  So slow! I so want to be out of the car.  The GPS again entices with a road.  Turn onto county road or go an additional four minutes to look for a larger road? The county road looks ok.  You can go 50 MPH.  How bad can it be?  Four minutes faster!

    The first half mile looked good,  then the pavement disappeared.  Nine miles of dirt roads.  Tractor ruts.  Dust.  I feel myself beyond irritated.  How could the GPS take us here?  Who uses these roads?  Why did I let the promise of four minutes faster lure me into this never ending, bumpy madness?  Never again, I vow.  I will navigate better.  I will have more patience. I will make sure my journey is on a better path.

    Finally, we are there!  Happiness, joyfulness….wait are those rocks on the hood of my truck?  Under an inch of fine dust, the RV and truck seem tired.  We pull up to the gate, only to find no one is there to help us check in.  Do it yourself is the order of the day in 2022 America.  But we are pioneers of our new life….intrepid travelers….and so we do help ourselves. 

    We settle into a secluded, wooded spot.  The birds are singing.  As fireflies dance and spotted fawns wonder the fields, I slow cook steak and fried potatoes over the campfire.  I have learned something today about taking shortcuts.  I have decided to take the longer path this evening and enjoy every minute….and every mouthful.

  • The journey begins…again

    “It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.”

    Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.

    — Oscar Wilde.

    Today I start a new beginning, at 56. For the last 32 years I have been an educator and before that I was a student. Perhaps this explains why I am full of questions. Intellectually, I want to know. I find beauty in human diversity. I see possibility in divergence. In today’s world, it can be tough to be open and even tougher to be an optimist. Society seemingly demands you to pick a side, accept simplistic solutions, and never venture far from the common view. For those of us who resist false dichotomies and seek new ideas to push our limited boundaries, this territorial approach to life in the United State unnerving at best. So I humbly offer this blog. Perhaps no one will read it, I can’t really imagine that my voice can add to the ever increasing clanging that is social media…..and yet…… I want my voice to be heard. I want to reaffirm that there are individuals still committed to reason …still committed to simply finding joy in the human experience.

    I am that individual. I know that I must chose hope each day as an active endeavor. Each day, I have to reaffirm my identity and chose my priorities. I am a woman, a mother, a wife. I am a scholar, a christian, a citizen. I am a traveler who delights in seeing the world and interacting with its wonderful people. I am a wanderer adrift in this age of anxiety……not quite belonging to any tribe……but always a prisoner of hope.

  • Introduction to Prisoner of Hope

    Why write a blog?

    Today I retired from education, but in my head and I am still a wide eyed little girl wanting to make a difference in the world. I still have a voice and want to continue to contribute to the betterment of society.

    What is a prisoner of hope?

    This post is derived from a quote in the book of Job. It reads something like this…”return to your fortress, oh prisoner of hope.” Faith was Job’s fortress as it is mine. Faith in God and goodness and love.

    How does the idea of hope translate into anything anyone would want to read?

    Perhaps no one will want to read it. However it is designed as an outlet to bring hope, to highlight joy, to celebrate our humanity, to discuss issues that connect us.

    • Some posts may be silly
    • Some posts may be serious
    • Some posts may be pensive
    • All posts will be hopeful

    Who is your audience?

    I am just going to write…without worry….without pretense. Perhaps I will have no audience.

    You can join me as a fellow prisoner of hope or you can react in whatever way you choose. Freedom of choice is a hallmark of democracy. Free will is a gift of God. I hope that you choose to reason, and converse, and to foster hope.

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